Over the years as I was growing up, I never had a mom or a dad.. it's like I was raised by two very different people, whom I came to call them mom and dad, but the title now means nothing when I call them it, so that's why I call them "Sally" & "B.J." I maybe made from their genetic material, but they were not my parents, to tell you the truth I never had parents, I had to raise myself when they were caught up in their own shit! They only cared about their world and not what was going on in mine... So that's why i draw, to avoid feeling anything and it only made it worse as the years went by, because eventually I lost my heart to the collapsing walls of my chest, so all I have is shadered pieces of my kindness on the floor, and still everyday I try to put them back, but it always falls apart.. Because I had no one to turn to.. So I died 5 years ago in trying to cope with the pain..

In the silent vaccum of the darkness, I still began to fall further and further into oblivion, and as I fell into the silence I heard voices, voices of two beautiful indivduals and then they got louder and louder as I fell, and when the voices got even more louder than before I saw a light and in the light was two figures, and as I got closer to them the figures became clear. They were a man & a woman laughing and kissing each other as if it was harmony meeting choas for the first time in years, and as I was falling they reach out for me and grabbed my arms then pulled me in, and when I got a closer looked upon my saviors, they had the faces of my cousin, Colby and his dearest wife, Brittany. As I stared at them, they both hugged me and squezzed me as if they had lost me to a coma and now is getting back up again for the first time in months, and as I felt their love over powering me, my my black void began to fill itself up, giving back the heart that was gone..

Eveytime I look at them, I always wondered if they raised or if I was their child, would I be a dream child? a perfect teenager? and a great son? or would I be a burden, because my real parents must have thought I was... So all I can do is be with them whenever oppertunatiy knocks.. But I still think of them as A Mother & A Father, because they're supporting and caring, and everything that my real parents weren't, so if I became a Movie director it would be the ultimate Fuck You to my parents! but it would be an thanks as well, and for Colby & Brittany it would be "I love you guys, so damn much!!" and everytime when one of my movie premiere begins, I'll invite: Colby, Brittany, and John, and Tiffany, and Keanue, and Mariah..